Self-absorbed

I've no idea if anyone is reading this, or perhaps its just my own self who really cares what goes on in my life. But really, if u read this, give me a sign,  leave a comment. Makes me realise I'm not just talking to myself.

I was talking previously about how adamant about me leaving my job, how I had a revelation, and that I was so sure of my decision. Well, not anymore. I'm not done yet. And I applaud myself for that.

I spoke to my manager about my suicidal thoughts on the job, about how devastated I was that no matter how much effort I put in, it seems so insignificant compared to the blunders I've made. I felt that I was no good for anything, how I have the special ability to just mess up a simple thing with a snap of my fingers. She told me otherwise, she had told me that my effort was seen, and I had made real progress in the past months, and the reason they rode me so hard was that they thought it'd make me even better. She told me she was glad I've opened up about my real opinions on the job and not just some politically correct answers like I always used to give.
When I told her I was 80% sure I want to leave, she'd told me by the progress I've made, im so not done yet.
And here I am. I suppose I will give it another go. With a limit of 6 months to see where I'll go. And I love how the law of attraction works, once I made this decision to stay on, I see even more advancement in my job.
Now, I realised I have to be less self-absorbed and stop seeing things on the surface, nobody will know what I'm thinking unless I share my thoughts, and that's what I'll do, it will not be easy, given that I prefer to write where only perfect strangers see and hold my silence in person.
Thanks for reading anyways, whoever you are.