Self-deprecating

I remembered how I used to shout out to my friends in school whenever we see each other, I'd say HOSEHBO! And I'm totally interested when I said that. For those who are clueless,  its simply means isn't life great for you? It was always super enthusiastic,  I could not have imagine at that point of time, that a decade down the road, there are so many times, we asked 'How are you?' So many times but simply for formality's sake, and that I might not be really interested, but really asking because I got something to talk to you, and the question was merely to start the ball rolling.
Sad,  don't you think?
When have I stopped being enthusiastic about life's possibilities?
When have I stopped being interested in people around me?
When have I stopped being sincerely?
Looking back, its depressing to realise that I went from being genuinely interested in people, to dread talking to anyone at all at times. I shut everyone out!
I realised it is time to stop doing this to myself, it's killing me from inside. Being enthusiatic does not equates to being immature, it's about being passionate about Life, people and the things you do.
First step.
SMILE!